Hello Interwebs!!!
Finally, I’m back! I know that your heart is a flutter as a result of my triumphant return.
Well, maybe you haven’t developed a cardiac arrythmia as a result of our reunion, but hopefully you aren’t going asystole on me.
So what have I been up to? School and school and school and school. Seriously, I haven’t really had time to breathe in the last 8 weeks and (if you have been keeping up with the blog) you have been able to experience the fruit of that labor in my meticulously written history and English papers which I have been posting. My history class has kept me so ridiculously busy that I haven’t had time to really do much else. Between the weekly discussion postings, peer responses, on-line group projects (Really bad idea, fyi. If you are an instructor, please, for the love of everything Holy, do not assign group projects for an on-line class!!), individual power point projects, weekly quizzes, formal papers, and, not to mention, about 150 pages of reading every week, I have been a little neglectful of other things in my life. Including, but not exclusively limited to, my blog, my family, my other classes, my full-time job, personal hygiene, watching my YouTube regulars, eating, sleeping, building my life-size toothpick model of the Eiffel Tower, and my part-time job (Some of those were a bit of an exaggeration, if you couldn’t tell. I actually have half of my toothpick Eiffel Tower finished in the backyard.).
To say the least, I am rejoicing (Insert happy dance) because my history class is coming to a close. I think that I will probably get a pretty decent grade. Hoping for an “A” as I had only missed 10 points out of 700 prior to the on-line final, but the final whooped my butt. Worst test performance that I have had since middle school. Who the crap even administers comprehensive finals anymore? Apparently my freaking history professor.
You know, my issue isn’t really with the fact that we had a comprehensive final, as we are supposed to have retained all we learned about the history of European women during this course. My issue was with the test format. If you are going to have a comprehensive final, please keep the questions limited to the overarching concepts which were supposed to be taught throughout the course. My prof decided to have two conceptual questions worth 25 points each and I rocked those; however, she had seven true/false (eyenorite!?!!?) questions worth 10 points apiece. And I am not talking about logical questions either. These were questions which I scoured the text and the Internet to find, but was unable to locate the answer. And we all know, if you can’t find it on the interweb, then it must be make-believe.
She literally took such abstract questions from one line in 800 pages of text and expected us to either remember them from the reading, or to find them. It was insane, and I did not do well to say the least. I am really disappointed with my performance, but I am hoping that she finds it in her heart to ensure that I get an “A” as anything below a 95% gets bumped down to an “A-” which affects my overall GPA. I am hoping to graduate Summa (GPA of 3.9 or higher) in a year, but that might not happen if I get an “A-” as I already have two “B’s” and one “A-” from some screw ups several years ago during my first go-around with college.
All I can do now is cross my fingers and hope that the rest of my course work was enough to prove my work ethic and my understanding of the important concepts of the class.
So, what else has been going on…
Well, I had serious bout with utter depression due to the workload which I am shouldering. A really good friend told me to get meds. I didn’t want to, so I didn’t, but it probably would have helped. Fortunately, I have had several pretty awesome Jesus encounters over the last few weeks which have really brought me out of it. The truth is I was running from God and from my call because I was afraid of failing. I was fairly overwhelmed with all the goings on in my life, and, truth be told, I was blaming god for my problems.
BAD IDEA IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING.
The part that is even worse is that those around me were paying the price for my disobedience and lack of faith almost as much as I was. My family suffered, my church suffered, and those who are close to me were also affected. Yeah, I feel like a tool, but I can’t change the past; therefore, I don’t dwell on it. I have admitted my failure and said my apologies. There is really nothing else to do but move on. So I have and the future is looking bright and shiny (ten cool points to whomever calls that reference first in the comments). In all seriousness, though, I finally feel like I have turned the corner and am making very strong strides toward a full recovery.
Who knows, I might even turn out better than I was before this all began. God never wastes a hurt, so I am looking for the lesson which I am supposed to garner from my episode of depression. I know that God will be forthcoming and there is wisdom to pull from my experience. After all, what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. Right? That is what I am telling myself anyway.
Other happenings…
1. My car is repaired and licensed (YAY!!).
2. I have recently hit a creative streak on the guitar.
3. I got a new guitar (I will be writing more on this as I am in love).
4. Actually, I have acquired two guitars.
5. Started a new full-time job (Actually a 90-day detail to another department).
6. Discovered the awesome that is Boyce Avenue. Seriously, check them out. They rock.
7. Fell in love with Bones (Not the show…my wife. I call her Bones if you were unaware.) all over again (Awww…).
8. Ninja punched a baby (Not really, but I had to spice it up, Amirite!?!?!).
9. Received a Samurai Tsunami Punch of Ddoom from said baby’s mother (Also a lie.).
10. That’s right Ddoom. I created a new word which is even more condemning and ominous that just your average run of the mill doom. We are talking about some serious doomishness here. Hence, Ddoom!
11. Realized that I am an idiot.
12. Totally forgot about my realization of idiocy and reasserted my faux-awesomeness two seconds later.
13. Ran out of things to list on my blog, but continued listing erroneous and sophomoric events which never occurred outside of my head just because I can. It is my blog and I can fabricate if I want to.
Anyway, you get the idea. It has been really busy over here in Jeremy-land, so that is why you haven’t been able to read any truly personal posts from me. I promise to rectify this issue promptly and return to a more regular personal posting schedule in addition to my academic musings which I know keep you coming back for more!
Thanks for sticking it out guys!